Getting into the real life. /” Good bye April hello May”

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Hello there my fellow bloggers! How have you all been? it’s been awhile since i updated my blog but let me tell you why i’ve been so busy!

First of all let me say it’s finally May hope May brings the best for you all!

Got some real exciting good news for you guys, guess what? i got a weekend shift job at Primark !  i have already started working there and helping them setting up the new store and we have been stocking things up. I am so glad that they recruited me! I get paid £7,08 hourly and my wages are paid on a 4 week basis my first payment will be the 13th May.

As i am just starting to get into the working world , I’ve just had my first shift last Thursday 28th April which wasn’t so bad . and then had my proper first working shift on Saturday which i work in department 4 laundry ~ lingerie area. But as the stores open i will be in the fitting rooms!

I’m real happy about getting the job and i’m working for Primark which is the store i love! I have been looking for a job for months now.

If you ever want something never give up and just keep chasing for it!

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Audition For Kpop Star Season 6??!

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Hey there my fellow bloggers!

If any of you guys watch kpop Star then you know that season 5 has just finished a couple days ago and hopefully there will be season 6. Well thing is I’ve been preparing my self in dance and acting for when i audition for the companies but i kind of want to take this opportunity to  audition for kpop star season 6. I wanted to audition for kpop star season 5 but then i didn’t think i was ready back then .

I am still deciding on if i should audition for the upcoming kpop star season 6 or not. I really would like honest opinion on my dance skills and i think auditioning for kpop star would really help me improve the best way as i can with the judges opinion.

I’ve been training myself constantly in dance for the past 2yrs now.

So what do you guys think do you think i should just go for it and audition when the audition dates are released for season 6?

Happy blogging ! ~ peace out  ~

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Primark Job Interview ?!

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Hello there my fellow bloggers! Hope you all had/having a good day!

To the people who’ve been following my blog for awhile you may know that I’ve had a job interview for Primark for Visual Merchandising and wasn’t a successful candidate . Well i wasn’t going to give up on Primark as i love Primark I’d love to be working here. So then after a month i applied again for the role of Temporary Retail Assistant (Part Time) 20 hrs.

I’ve got a job interview for it this upcoming Sunday the 17th.  I feel like i am much more prepared for this interview .  If i get this job i can save up more money and go to Seoul then maybe my dream of auditioning for Cube Entertainment will come true. Or maybe JYP Entertainment these two companies are the two i want to audition for.

Let’s hope i get this job fighting ~

Happy Blogging peace out!

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Dreaming of black shadows figures.

270338409_17afdc6d8a_b.jpgHey there my fellow bloggers! Hope your all having a good day .

I’ve been having dreams of Black shadow figures lately i am not sure why , the first dream i had was a black shadow figure similar to this photo standing in my room next to my door . The next one i had was the same dark black shadow figure person walking out of the door and that was the end of the dream.  Lastly the last one i had was loads of them just rising up from the floor the area was bright orange and that was it. When i do have dreams of shadow figures they only last seconds from what i know. Does anyone know what these dreams means?

Have you ever dreamed or seen a black shadow figure?

Happy Blogging!

~ peace out ~

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Travelling ? All nighters?

Hey there my fellow bloggers! Hope your all having a good day!

I am going to Harrogate tomorrow with my boyfriend and my mother to sleepover at my uncles and i will be seeing my brother and my brother’s girlfriend for the first time in ages! It is 3:48am right now and i have not had any sleep yet think I’m too excited i don’t know i haven’t been able to sleep properly for the past few days . Maybe because i miss my boyfriend a little too much i haven’t seen him since last Saturday as he’s been up in Scotland visiting his family . I can’t wait to see him again tomorrow.

I should properly start going to sleep soon but the real trouble obviously is that i can’t get to sleep and it’s really frustrating it makes me feel the nights i went through when i had Insomnia.  I really don’t like those kind of sleeping patterns.  I properly won’t be blogging for a few days because i am not so sure if at my uncles have WIFI or not😦 but i will be back on Friday.

Hope you all have a great week and happy blogging ! peace out ~

 

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Watch Korean Dramas!

Hey there my fellow bloggers!

Hope you all are having a nice day it is 14:12pm here in England.

If any of you are a big fan of Kdramas i will give you the links to watch kdramas with english subtitles with no ads! isn’t that just heaven ? being able to watch your favourite kdrama without ads.

  1. http://dramafire.com/korean/korean-dramas/

2.  http://www.dramagalaxy.tv/

These two websites are the ones i use that has full episodes and english subtitles with no ads. I recommend you use  DramaFire.com as i think it’s better quality and it is also a very simple build website . They also upload new episodes and upcoming dramas that are ongoing witch is very good ! They have almost every drama going on out there! they also have Japanese dramas , Hong Kong & Taiwanese dramas. They update the website on a daily basis .

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Anxiety, Depression & Eating Disorder .

Hey guys! 

I’m going to write about a post about my Anxiety , Depression and Eating Disorder . When i was a little kid I’ve always been the odd one out like for an example on my birthday when i was turning 5yrs old . I had my birthday party at McDonald’s it was something that my mum has planned and organised for me and i invited all my friends from school and of course it was a party they played games and danced but me? no…i just sat in my pushchair even though it was my birthday because i was so scared and shy…i literally didn’t do anything. 

 Fast forwarding time all the way to when I’m 12 i was in Secondary school and i did have a group of friends but i was that shy one of course in the group i didn’t really speak much at all even though they were my ‘ friends ‘  nor did i speak to anyone in school i was so quiet and didn’t speak much to nothing that people thought i was mute. Yes i was that quiet. During my age of being 12 in October 2014 i fell for a guy whom i saw on Facebook he was friends with the people i knew. And it just led me to a really bad position when i told him i liked him it wasn’t because he was one of the ‘ popular ‘ guys i didn’t like him just because he was popular but i just really like him. People from the different schools in my city just started adding me on Facebook and some even commented on my photos ‘ so ugly ‘ or ‘ ew your really fat ‘ ect you get the point .

It got to the point where i didn’t get out of my house for 2-3 months because i was so anxious and my self esteem was so bad i didn’t want to go out of the house. There were people who i knew from my street on my Facebook asking if i still lived down the same street . I started self harming i just remember crying in my room for those months and not knowing what to do i was just so depressed.  

I couldn’t even eat properly. I started developing eating disorder from it i just couldn’t eat anything properly because i was so depressed and i just didn’t felt like eating i only ate one small meal everyday and i lost 4kilos dramatically from that.  All i could think of all day was to loose weight and how i could loose weight no matter how hard that would be i was willing to risk it as long as i could get the desired body i wanted.

To this day i am still recovering depression and a little of eating disorder. I still have a low self esteem but just not as bad i have been getting more confident lately . My depression is still really bad i am most depressed in the mornings especially when i am on the bus to college whilst i am listening to music tears slowly just start dropping .  

I just constantly feel down even when i’m happy my mood can drop in just seconds. But ever since i have been in a relationship this guy has made me really happy the only thing i am now afraid of is me getting too attached to someone again and getting hurt again. He said he loves me and that he doesn’t ever want to hurt me but that’s what my previous boyfriend said and he did end up hurting me really badly . I am still recovering from the heartache . But that’s another story that i will post about in the future! 

If you have any questions about Anxiety , Depression or Eating Disorder just comment below and i will answer them!

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